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What do I want to be when I grow up?

That is a really good question! 

I am 50 years old and still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up (career wise). I haven’t the slightest idea. After I graduated High School (early) I just wanted to get married to my husband and be out on our own.

In the early 1990’s after my daughter went to elementary school, I thought I would go check out the local junior college, so I made an appointment with a counselor. We talked about the different things the college offered and because I didn’t know what I wanted to do, she suggested that I take an interest test to see what career I might be suited for. She gave me a call a week later to come back in and go over the results. I was so excited to go back to school and have a career. After I sat down in her office, she picked up a small stack of papers in front of her and hesitated for a quick moment (took a breath). She went on to tell me ” I have never had this happen before (long pause), but you are not interested in anything.” At that moment my jaw dropped, my heart sunk and I’m sure all the color went out of my face. I was devastated! She went on to tell me “you are interested in little bits of everything. No one area interests you.” Normally people are drawn more to one career area than an other, but not me! I am ABNORMAL!!

Well, needless to say I never went back to get a career. That was a big blow to me! I have taken voice lessons at a local college’s community school of the arts, for fun. I have had jobs here and there that I have done well at, but nothing that was something that I really wanted to do.

Singing was my passion for many years, I sang at church and other places. I would have really liked to have been in a band and sung professionally, but that wasn’t in the cards and now who wants a 50 year old woman in their band?! I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say it (with a chuckle) “Boy, I wish we could find an older lady to sing with us in our band!!”, have you?

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